graffik!

wasn't accepted... trying a nonzombie looking one.

but those hands are so evocative!

holy shit

I have so much work these upcoming two weeks. WTF.
Also my boyfriend has been swallowed by finals and apparently will never resurface, or perhaps will after next week? Or after he graduates? Or I'm not actually sure.

OMG OMG OMG I have so much work *shrivel*
I hate me216b... its been VERY STRESSFUl. Is this what I want my life to be? me216b and ulcers forever?



I better suck it up and descend into the world that is hard work these next two weeks. Damn it.

i wonder

Will I always be so incredibly lonely? I cannot stand being around "artsy" people because I find them to be pretentious and concerned about their self images. I cannot stand being around engineers and practical people because they seem so heartless, uninspired, and, uncreative. I cannot stand "well adjusted" people because who the hell cares about the world they are so well adjusted to. I think no matter how hard I try, I'm always doomed to fuck up. I wonder, who the hell cares?

I have memories of my life, the lonely ones, being in Cebu, Jersey City, Manhattan, Palo Alto, all the periods of loneliness.

I saw a Munch show at the Cantor last Thursday. It was very good. I think I remember an old art teacher say that Munch practically drove himself crazy during the most productive artistic periods of his life. I was bummed out because some anal guard reprimanded me for "getting my hands" on the plexiglass case of Munch's belongings. A whole bunch of bullshit if you ask me. A few moments later, I heard a faint scratching noise, and I saw him sketching on a little notepad. WTF, guards aren't supposed to be surreptitiously sketching while they are guarding museum corners. I mean what with all the museum goers getting their fingerprints on plexiglass cases and such. Anyway... a whole wad of bullshit that put a damper on my appreciation of Munch's prints. They had about thirty.

I went to the Stanford MFA art show. It was a whole lot of bullshit if you ask me. Or maybe I just cannot understand modernist art "theory". It just looked like badly made objects. Coming from product design, I had some complaints about the poor craftsmanship of some of the art pieces. One artist had exacto knifed "peep holes" into plastic containers. The exacto knifed serrations were really grating,and the sculptures were not functional. Didnt anyone ever teach these "conceptual" artists how to use exacto knifes PROPERLY?

anyway, this whole post is becoming piss and vinegar. I'm entering the real world. i dont know if I'm excited at all.

living in SF!

here is the house where I will be living next year. Yes its purple! I'm excited and scared to be starting out life outside of college. I hope it works out!

learning to be an adult

today i checked out my first credit report... and it looks like I am in good standing. Woopie! Maybe I can get an apartment. I am going to be living in the city and working for a firm called Unovo. They make wonder irons... that are simply awesome. I am excited. I am going to be living in SF.

And today I got my first credit report. Apparently, my creditors still think I'm living in New Jersey. .So far it looks like I have a pretty clean report. ACCOUNTS IN GOOD STANDING and NEVER LATE. Yay I'm a good person. Sort of.

I'm so busy busy busy nowadays. But my undergrad career is coming to an end, and I'm excited to start life as a real product designer! Woohoo. I've had too much caffeine and I'm feeling pretty wired right now.

by the way... if you're interested in getting a credit report, you can get one, once a year for free from the government!

Taco, taco , taco

I heart Nornna!

I feel whole when you are here.

I wish I knew this existed

map of all the safe bike routes in the stanford area!

mmm

So Jon's writing this paper on "a simple method for obtaining the period of nonlinear oscillators". It sounds cool. There are a ton of integrals in the paper. It looks kind of complicated and cool-looking. (delete math-fetish related comments here)

Elsewhere in the world, the Stanford Design Process... yes SDP seems to have divergent results in terms of life and me216b.

I tried to inspire myself with something cheerful today. I bought some Teddy Grahams (the golden honey variety). It wasn't very helpful. Also in other news, my body seems to keep breaking /hurting. Currently, I am getting muscle pains in my thighs. It must be because of all that walking in my stupid 3 dollar girly shoes through San Francisco today.

A notable quote from Val. "I can't help but notice, but this soup tastes like cancer".
Bergy.. "Yes, quite interesting. This is the best tasting cancer I've had in my life... but then again, this is the first cancer soup I've had ever."

And yes the soup , allegedly, tomato soup did taste like cancer. And by cancer I mean burnt.